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Monday, June 05, 2006

yes, finally coming back to blog. doubt anybody actually comes here anymore anyway, so i can blog about whatever i want can't i?

well cap did open my eyes to alot of stuff. like, i'm a super big loser who can't converse with people who apparently appear more attractive physically. hell, during the camp i was a virtual nobody. i was like sitting there stoning and talking to gerald and laughing boy. haha was quite fun anyways but...back to the topic:

i seriously felt like slapping myself whenever i passed off the chance to talk to someone new. like when greg first turned to me and laughed at the notice he had stuck on his door, i could have chosen to reply with one of the super duper lame responses i come up with (in my head most of the time) instead of choosing to stone there at the door to my room until hee came to enjoy the atmosphere of cheap but engaging humour.

and wth! even people i already know were beyond me. it actually took like one day for ___ and me to...converse. pathetic seriously. and even then it was her who went like *points at handphone*. ok you dont geddit do you?

im a super loser freak who keeps to himself all the time. period.

and im bordering on hating myself.

well, considering that random person might just decide to search slauinsurance on google and come to this blog in like a one out of 100 chance, i shall choose to stop here, and well continue the rest in my mind which is at the moment chocked full to the brim with stuff that i was supposed to have cleared out months ago.

declarations? confessions? yes they make up a large part of that. relationships? commitments? goals? dreams? very very large part of that too.

and today, or yesterday, i went for the global day of prayer, and the pastor asked...what would YOU find if you digged down deep right into the very centre of your being?

me? i think it'd be rather screwed up at the very core.


- wah-slau-eh!


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